Priorities and Contradictions

(Please don't let the title confuse you, these are separate ideas I will be writing about)

I got to go to my mom's church for service tonight.  I honestly don't remember a lot of what the preacher said (my mind is too full of to-do lists to absorb everything i hear), but one thing stuck out to me.  He was talking about priorities and how our number one priority should be God.  I know, I know, duh right?  Well, as simple as a concept as this is, somehow, I've missed it for years.  As I got to thinking about what my priorities were, what came to mind was sad....to-do lists, losing weight, eating better, running more, looking good, being healthier, being more productive and on and on it goes.  Now, none of these things are bad, what is bad is that they are all at the top of my priority list.  (Where's God in there?  ooops)  Without really realizing it, I've become one of those people that has put God in a box.  Yes, I go to church every time the doors are open, and I'm a "good" person, and occasionally I even read my Bible at home and talk to others about God.  But I've made the very unfortunate mistake of taking control of my life and putting God in the passenger seat.  Well, that's all about to change, and hopefully, so am I!  My goal this week is to start my day out with God, every day.  This isn't going to be easy considering that means I have to be up early, but He's so totally worth it!

Now, moving on to the contradiction part of the title.  I was driving home from church tonight and the car in front of me had two bumper stickers on the back of it.  On the left was "Obama sucks" and the other was "Let Go and Let God."  The only things going through my mind at that point was WOW!  what a contradiction.  How so, you ask?  According to Romans 13:1 "Let everyone be subject to the governing authorities, for there is no authority except that which God has established.  The authorities that exist have been established by God."  Now, if we truly were to let go and let God, then by this verse, wouldn't we be dishonoring God by saying that someone in a political position sucks?  And if I may go so far to say that God does as well because He is the one that established this person in authority?  Wow!  What a contradiction.

As for wedding stuff, we close on the house on March 31st (less than two weeks! yay!!!), we have a wedding shower 4 out of the 5 weekends in April which I'm super excited about!  We're fixing to send the invitations to the calligrapher as soon as we (aka I, Eric has his list done already.  don't want to talk about it hehe) get all the addresses we need.  I'm starting to get down to planning the finer details of the actual day.  It's all quite exciting :D  Someone asked me today if I was getting nervous yet and the answer is no.  I don't see the point in being nervous.  I know I am doing the right thing and whatever happens I have God, Eric, and my great family and friends to back me up and support so really there is no need to be nervous, only very, very excited :D

I miss Eric like crazy already and I don't get to see him until next Thursday.  I didn't want to let go of him yesterday when we were saying goodbye.  I had my arms wrapped around him in a hug and instead of letting go, I just kept holding him tighter and tighter.  I cried, let go, hugged him again, and eventually let go again, still crying, and finally said goodbye.  For some reason, its harder to let go some times more than others and this one has been the worst so far.  But, it will be ok.  I have a busy to-do list to keep me occupied for the next week and a half and only 89 days and 14 hours until I get to marry him and say goodbye much less often :D

I must sleep now so that I can achieve my goal of getting up early to spend time alone with God

Thx 4 readin
~The Future Mrs. Eric Morgan :D