Just a glimpse of whats going on with me right now:
- The birth control is making me a hormonal freeaaaaaaak! This is really hard for me because I'm used to be a somewhat even-keeled person. I've cried more in the three weeks since I started this than I possibly have my whole life! (and sadly, most of it has been over nothing)
- Oh yeah, I'm planning a wedding. The hard one with this is that I feel like I don't know what I'm doing and the to-do list for the big day is constantly running through my head. It's like my brain wants to keep it there so I don't forget about it. I'm so, so, so, so, so, SO thankful to all the people who are supporting and/or helping me including my bridesmaids, family, and fiancée!
- I hate being apart from Eric. This last time I had to leave him, and our brand new home was crazy, super hard and waiting for him to come back Thursday has been just as, if not harder.
- School- down to the last month of the semester. I'm so thankful for the decision I made to just take a couple basic online classes but still it requires time and effort. Will definitely be glad when that is out of the way.
- Lastly, my schedule has just been insane. I'm behind with a lot of things because I'm just on the go all the time. I have yet to unpack from my trip which I returned from four days ago. I had time to walk in, drop my suitcase and leave again. I'm really trying not to stress but I think I've just got a little too much on my plate to completely avoid being stressed! The one benefit of the stress is that its taking the place of what I assume to be "normal nervousness" regarding the wedding. It's just not there (yet).
This was really just a ranting post. I was having a moment of just sitting here crying in the middle of my destroyed room in desperate need of cleaning and I thought maybe if I cleared my head, I could accomplish something. Going to give that a try now...
Thx 4 readin~
The Future Mrs. Eric Morgan (10 weeks and counting!!!!!)
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