It just doesn't seem real

Another Monday has come and gone, but today was not just any Monday.  The last two and a half weeks have been like Christmas all over again.  It snowed, like crazy.  I got to spend a whole week with Eric.  I didn't have much school at all.  There was no church.  So today was like getting back into a new routine all over again.  Out of the many things I had on my to-do list, I accomplished two: spending a great portion of the day with two super cute, sweet babies and going to the gym for my fitness class.  I guess I consider it a successful day since those were the necessary things.  The rest can be done tomorrow.

Someone commented today that it doesn't seem real that in a very short time, I will be a wife.  Many think of me as the babysitter, which I am completely okay with.  God has truly given me a special place in my heart for children and I don't plan on losing that when I get married, I'll just have to find some new kids to love on since I'll be moving.  But honestly, it doesn't seem real.  In 17 weeks and 4 days, I will be marrying the love of my life, and while I am completely excited, I have no idea what to expect!  EVERYTHING is going to change!  This excites me because I have spent the last (almost) 21 years of my life in the same place with the same people doing basically the same thing.  I am NOT saying that this is bad, all I'm saying is that it will be nice to have a fresh start :D

As for wedding planning, the week the Eric and I had together gave us the opportunity to accomplish quite a bit (although there is still plenty left to do).  We registered at Target and Bed, Bath, and Beyond.  We picked out tuxes and invitations.  We had our first counselling session.  Choosing and reserving the photographer.  And we picked a place and time for the rehearsal dinner!  Next steps....cake, flowers, picking music, finalizing the guest list, getting our honeymoon booked, and starting to make a schedule for the day of.  I also am continuously in the process of de-cluttering and figuring out what stays, goes, and gets thrown away when i move!  No progress on the house because of being unable to contact our realtor but hopefully we will be moving along on that process soon.

As for school, I have decided to go for my Associate Degree of Science at NWACC and Medical Assistant certificate at the El Centro branch of Dallas County Community College.  Nursing, I've decided, was something that I did for others, not for myself and my heart wasn't in it.  I've been told numerous times by nurses that if your hearts not in it, don't do.  This decision has led me to drop two classes that I was currently enrolled in because there was no need for them.  I am three classes away from graduating from NWACC.  I will complete these online either during the summer or in the fall and I will start working towards my certificate in either the fall or spring.  It worked out that the classes that I am remaining enrolled in this semester are online so that will free me up to plan the wedding, work to pay for the wedding, and visit Texas more often.

Random thought to conclude.  Over the two weeks that I had off, I did a lot of waiting.  And anyone that knows me well, knows that I am not a patient person.  As I was driving to Texas, I got to thinking about how much God waits on us.  He is not a forceful God.  In Revelation 3:20, the Bible states "Here I am! I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears my voice and opens the door, I will come in and eat with that person, and they with me."  Really???  The God of all the universe that has the power to do ANYTHING will stand at the door of my heart and wait for ME to open in when I'm ready.  So here I sit, being impatient for the next 17 weeks to go by fast and yet how long has God been waiting for me to open the door of my heart and follow what HE wants instead of what I want.

Just a thought :)

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~The Future Mrs. Eric Morgan :D